Lets talk about Virgins

I started to write about them yesterday but I got sidetracked

They still exist, I'm one. Sometimes I wonder why I choose to keep my legs closed. Like where not open for business come back another time. I'm a 22 year old virgin I'm scared of preg-nant-is. I'm VERY selective of the guys I choose to be around. Girls I grow up around, have been having babies like its nothing.  Are you allergic to condoms or something.

I think my sister is allergic to them. My sister has 3 little boys, she's only 14 months older than me. She never finished high school, those little boys are her life now. She's very much in denial, she thinks that she should have a life. She goes day by day with mood swings for whatever reason. Because its hard to do anything outside of her boys as a single parent.

I don't want that for myself. I often joke about not having kids because of nephews. They are 4/ 2 & 1, a busy bunch always getting into something. They're a lot of work, I don't want to do it solo. For me to have kids I want to be in a loving relationship and married. I don't know if that's going to happen. So its a standing joke that I say (I'm not giving my siblings nephews or nieces; my parents anymore grands; & my nephews any cousins). Which isn't true considering I've thought of names.

I've never been in a serious relationship. Had a few guys friends that never became more because they wanted something I wasn't giving.  So on both ends we part ways.

I learned if a dude even mentioned sex in regular everyday conversation within the first few weeks of knowing me. I just made my exit because NOTHING was popping off between these thighs. One guy was really into the sex talk And went so far as to tell he was going to send me a picture of "little Ricky". I was like who is Ricky, he was quiet for a second on the phone when I finally understood what he met. Like whoa don't do me any favors if I wanted to see your little Dink dink I would have asked in person (pictures don't do justice). Well maybe not back than, I was such a prune in high school

Since I've held on to it this long I might as well go all that way. Wait for the Guy I have deep "DEEP" feelings for.

I don't want to go thorough what my sisters went thorough. I have another sister in her mid 30s. Who made mistakes that I heard second hand. She doesn't have her own kids, not for the sake of trying. but I'm going to leave that one alone.

'tis all for now